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Live life moment to moment.

With each passing day, the reality that I am dying hits home. Dying this young wasn't part of my plan. Really though, is it part of anyone's plan?

My body may be giving way, but my Spirit does not have to follow it down the Rabbit Hole into despair.

I would rather be playing hockey than dealing with a cancer diagnosis.

Our world acts in accordance with natural laws. "The 'natural' world operates on principles where fairness plays no part..." Madeleine L'Engle

I was asked to write about how I manage my pain. Not until recently have I experienced constant, intense, unrelenting pain. Managing the pain related to the cancer in my liver, has been more challenging than dealing with any of my other sports related injuries (even my broken thumb).

Do you believe that your thoughts create your reality? That what you think about you bring about? While what you think does have significance, I believe that there is more to the story.

When diagnosed with an illness, one might easily pray for the miracle in the form of a cure. If all I focused on was this miracle, I might have missed out on all the daily miracles in my life.

Navigating through cancer is at times like being on a path that is overgrown. Which path do I take when everything is overgrown and feels unfamiliar?

Listen to Life was a phrase that grabbed my attention as I read The Five Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Ruiz Jr. What exactly does it mean to Listen to Life?

Knowing that "Life can change in the blink of an eye", can you learn to appreciate those days when you are overwhelmed and overtired? Just because you still have life? 

What it feels like to face mortality when it staring you right in the face? 

This is a reflection on Robert Ohotto's question, "Can you accept life on Life's terms?"

The healing journey requires periods of acclimatization. Some days are harder than others. 

If life is a journey, what kind of journey are you on? 

What happens when you go, go, go and run out of gas? 

Not having work be my purpose for getting out of bed each morning, I wondered what exactly was getting me up and going each morning.  

Have you buried your grief, only to find that the ghost of grief still haunts you? Grief emerged as an issue for me during a guided meditation. 

The Ancient Greek philosopher, Heraclitus, is quoted to have said, "The only constant is change." Still we resist. What is your relationship like with change? 

"What would you do if you only had 15 minutes to live?" It wasn't the question from Dr. Bernie Siegel, but rather my answer that started the neurosynaptic reflection process. I wondered, "What is it about joy or lack of joy, that affects a person's overall well-being?"

There is a strong tendency to focus on dietary habits and cancer; prevention (or not) and cure (or not). Nutritional choices have a role, but there are more factors to be considered. If cancer is a "call for change", my soul prayer is "Reveal to me what in my life am I meant to change." Healing for me does not mean that I will not die. We will all die. Healing for me is about living the life I was given more fully, more honestly, more lovingly, and more joyously.

I can harness the wind, but I cannot change its force or direction. I can accept my fate, while I co-create my destiny. Is the diagnosis of cancer my fate combined with my destiny? It feels like I am paddling into the wind. 

November 2012 I was in New York City, attending Robert Holden's Success course. A cancer diagnosis in 2020 has left me wondering once again, what being successful really means to me. Guided to re-listen his audio book, Authentic Success, I heard the question, "What do you want?" My response this time was, "It all depends on who in me is answering?"

Many people were as surprised about me being diagnosed with cancer as I was. Perhaps it was because if it could happen to me, it could happen to them. That was how I felt by the death of Laura Harris. She was just fifty-three (my age now). She was active and outgoing. It was her death almost 12 years ago, that taught me not to wait to live life. She also taught me to swim better, helping me to make it through the 1.5 km half-ironman swim. How does someone not take cancer personally, when it has so much potential to lead to death? 

Who am I really? How am I meant to serve the greater good? What will I do with the rest of my life? These are just a few of the questions that continue to wash over me, as I sit in that row boat, in the middle of the ocean surrounded by the fog. 

"What is your relationship with uncertainty?" Personally, I have spent the past year wrestling with life's uncertainties.  Not just because of the global pandemic, but because I was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer in early February 2020. 

As part of my personal Journey of Healing, I journal every morning. I am not just writing; I am conversing with God. The God that is within me to the Source of Universal Power that is greater than myself.  This morning I heard the words, "share it." Which meant that I was to find a way to share my inner most thoughts with you.  You might be more inclined to watch a video blog than to read these words. Though if you are meant to get the message you will. 

Ever felt alone when you were with another person? Or wondered if there is anything you can do about it?

Remember the dreams where you were standing naked in front of a crowd?  That’s how I felt when I published Happily Ever Now. It was like I was running around town naked. I have just... Read More

An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure. An old cliché but also a truth. It is simple and to the point. If simple then why are so many people not practicing prevention? Why do... Read More

Once upon a time… We all know the story of the three bears. Too hard; too soft; just right. Too hot; too cold; just right. As a physiotherapist, my clients tell me how they overdid it... Read More

There are choices you can make that will reduce your arthritic pain. 

Caffeine was bringing me down A friend gave me an energy drink a few years ago, and told me it didn’t have caffeine in it. I drank it before a hockey game. I experienced heart... Read More

“I feel crappy,” one client wrote in an email, and then went on to express poor choices in eating and a lack of motivation for exercise. Here is my reply: I have dealt with depression... Read More

One of my clients told me her grandson asks her how she was. and she replied, “Perfect.” He replied, “You don’t have very reliable sources do you Grandma.”

Trauma There was a recent event involving another person that made me feel both hurt and angry—for the day. I could have stayed hurt and angry longer, carrying the grudge with me... Read More

Blending spirituality with scientific teaching is a challenge in our evidence-based world. The fear is being viewed as a quack.