Archives January 2021

November 2012 I was in New York City, attending Robert Holden's Success course. A cancer diagnosis in 2020 has left me wondering once again, what being successful really means to me. Guided to re-listen his audio book, Authentic Success, I heard the question, "What do you want?" My response this time was, "It all depends on who in me is answering?"

Many people were as surprised about me being diagnosed with cancer as I was. Perhaps it was because if it could happen to me, it could happen to them. That was how I felt by the death of Laura Harris. She was just fifty-three (my age now). She was active and outgoing. It was her death almost 12 years ago, that taught me not to wait to live life. She also taught me to swim better, helping me to make it through the 1.5 km half-ironman swim. How does someone not take cancer personally, when it has so much potential to lead to death? 

Who am I really? How am I meant to serve the greater good? What will I do with the rest of my life? These are just a few of the questions that continue to wash over me, as I sit in that row boat, in the middle of the ocean surrounded by the fog. 

"What is your relationship with uncertainty?" Personally, I have spent the past year wrestling with life's uncertainties.  Not just because of the global pandemic, but because I was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer in early February 2020. 

As part of my personal Journey of Healing, I journal every morning. I am not just writing; I am conversing with God. The God that is within me to the Source of Universal Power that is greater than myself.  This morning I heard the words, "share it." Which meant that I was to find a way to share my inner most thoughts with you.  You might be more inclined to watch a video blog than to read these words. Though if you are meant to get the message you will. 

Ever felt alone when you were with another person? Or wondered if there is anything you can do about it?