“Embrace each challenge in your life as an opportunity for self-transformation.”
"Dr. Bernie Siegel is a writer and retired pediatric and general surgeon who writes and teaches about mind-body medicine and the relationship between the patient and the healing process." In a recent interview he asked, "What would you do if you had only 15 minutes to live?" It wasn't the question, but rather my answer, that started the chain reactive neurosynaptic process in my brain.
Assuming that I was at home with my dog Bauer, I'd take him for one last farm walk. Bauer loves his farm walks. There he is able to freely roam through the farm fields sniffing out the field mice. The pure joy is evident by the, windshield wipers in a rainstorm, action of his tail. His joy washes over me. On a clear day, the smaller western mountains are visible, while to the east I can see the British Columbia coastal mountain range. This beautiful, peaceful and joyful walk is made all the better when I am joined by my friend Brianne and her dog Doug.
"What if I wasn't at home? If Bauer were at dog care and I was in Duncan, what would I do?" In that case I would head to the Duncan Garage and order a slice of the gluten free/vegan pizza (it is delicious), and a piece of the chocolate cake.
If I was out kayaking, I'd stop paddling, drift with closed eyes, and take it all in; the smell of the ocean, feel the wind, and the sun or misty rain on my body. If I wasn't on the water already kayaking, I wouldn't make it there in just 15 minutes.
What do all these things have in common? Joy. They are all things in my life where I experience a sense of joy. "What is it about joy or lack of joy contributes to a person's overall well-being?"
“We should never wait for science to give us permission to do the uncommon;
if we do, then we are turning science into another religion.”
Out of my Mind
Most of my life, I have felt like I was on a spiritual quest. I have studied spirituality, through reading many books, attending courses and conferences, watching programs like The Mystery Teachings on Gaia TV, and completing online courses. The diagnosis of stage IV colon cancer, felt like the final exam. Pass, and you get to stay a bit longer. Fail, and please try again. I am grateful to the many spiritual guides, mentors, and teachers over my 53 (almost 54) years. Caroline Myss has been a consistent teacher for about 11 of those years. It was from Caroline that I first heard, "You have to be out of your mind in order to heal."
"When the student is ready, the teacher appears."
In my case, it was when the student is ready the teacher will re-appear, if she is ready to hear the message and willing to take some action. Dr. Joe Dispenza's interview followed Bernie Seigel's. Joe is the author of Breaking The Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One.
Joe was in the documentary, What the Bleep Do We Know, which was my first exposure to the principles of quantum physics. Next, I heard him lecture at a Hay House Vancouver Conference in 2013. As a doctor of chiropractic medicine, Dr. Joe Dispenza combines his knowledge of the human body with the mind. He combines his training in neuroscience, neuroplasticity, quantum physics, heart-brain coherence, and meditation to help people make "measurable changes in their lives." He reportedly has witnessed miraculous instantaneous healings, and utilizes quantitative electroencephalogram (QEEG), to measure changes in the brain.
Joe Dispenza speaks about aligning with the infinite potential (quantum field) where there is no space or time. Where anything is possible. Where we are waking up to a blank canvas and get to create a new picture. A new body. A new love. Every day. Robert Ohotto, has taught about becoming nothing or nobody, and aligning with a "higher grid of power." Caroline Myss has taught about the horizontal (Chronos) versus vertical (Kairos) when it comes to healing.
Healing is about vibrating at a higher frequency. Disease happens when we are out of coherence, and resonating with lower vibrational frequencies. I had this knowledge, but had also created a life where I felt stressed most of the time. A life where the busyness had clouded out the joy. Even though I felt good physically speaking, I wasn't fooling myself at the Soul, nor the cellular level.
Creating A New Me
Both Joe Dispenza and Robert Ohotto have spoken about deactivating old patterns (neurosynaptic connections in the brain) and activating new patterns (new neurosynaptic connections). Part of my focus of transformation has been the deactivation of my Co-dependent, Blood Donor, and Shadow Rescuer archetypal patterns (to name a few). Then activating my Interdependent (who knows she has value), Sovereign Queen (who makes decisions based on what is good for the whole), and Sacred Prostitute (who gives my Soul currency) archetypal patterns. First, I had to become conscious of my Co-dependent, Shadow Rescuer, and Blood Donor patterns. They had been running my life for so long, they were hidden from view in the shadows of my subconscious programs.
To create a new me, I must be "conscious of my unconscious". Consciously aware enough to notice when my Co-dependent, in order to feel important and needed, is trying to sneak back into the driver's seat. This is where I use a Soul Prayer to activate my Queen, who will kick my Co-Dependent to the back of the bus. There are times when my Blood Donor is attempting to open the door to another Vampire, waiting at the bus stop. Here I can activate my Sacred Prostitute, to see that I have value and don't have to rescue the Vampire (who drains my life force).
To create a new me, I must be willing to do what is required to align myself with a higher frequency. This means deactivating my "Archetypes of survival and adaptation" and activating my "Mystical Archetypal Team" (Robert Ohotto). It means reprogramming my brain and making new synaptic connections based on feelings of love, joy, abundance, gratitude, and compassion. This is the purpose of Dr. Joe Dispenza's guided meditations.
For me it also involves daily writing as a form of connection to the Universal power, along with my Qigong practice. I started doing a daily Joe Dispenza meditation on February 19th after watching his recent interview.
If not now, then when?
What Frequency Are You Plugging Into?
Post colostomy surgery, I did an ETA scan with Cameron Moffat - Osteopathy in Victoria, BC (thanks Elaine). The testing and treatment are based on quantum physics and homeopathic remedies. It is the concept that every disease, viruses, food product, supplement, thought/affirmation, has a specific vibrational frequency.
The session involved scanning my body and detecting what primary toxins or pathogens were present. My initial scan revealed a high count of the Epstein Barr Virus (EBV), Herpes Virus, and a Liver Fluk (parasite that attacks the liver and gall bladder). There were also a couple of emotions that were identified as possible issues (these showed up on the computer screen and I intuitively identified with them). The two-hour session, then involved scanning the frequencies of certain supplements/homeopathic remedies and a couple of affirmations, through my body, to reduce the toxic (physical/emotional)/viral/pathogen) load. To date, I have done 2 sessions (each 2 hours). Each session felt like a whole-body detox, similar to when I have done any kind of detox work (counselling, acupuncture, deeper massage).
The research is out there, linking negative emotions with a lower vibrational frequency and diseases. It isn't just about knowing that joy, love, gratitude, and compassion are good for you. It is about getting your whole being into a state where you feel the higher vibrational frequency of these emotions. Your power to change is in the present, the now. You can't change if you are dragging the heavy chains of the past around with you. It is the Scrooge Story. He was shown the self he once was (past). He was shown what a miserable wretch he was in the present. He was shown his known future and that of another, that was based on his past and present if no changes were made. When he woke, he woke with a sense of joy and compassion. He was totally transformed. He didn't wait to let something external to himself bring him joy, it came from within himself.
The question is, what frequency are you plugging into when you first wake up in the morning? What if you didn't get out of bed to start your day, until you felt joy? I know some of you are saying, "I wouldn't be getting out of bed then." Which does happen doesn't it when someone is really in a depressed state of mind. Dr. Joe Dispenza's work does provide evidence on how our thoughts do change our physical reality. What you think really does matter.
Ultimately, I get to choose what frequency I plug into every day. I have still had moments of frustration, but they have passed much more quickly. I am choosing daily to plug into a higher frequency, and to leave cancer in my old self.
“To sum up the meditative process, you have to break the habit of being yourself and reinvent a new self;
lose your mind and create a new one; prune synaptic connections and nurture new ones;
unmemorize past emotions and recondition the body to a new mind and emotions;
and let go of the past and create a new future.”